Author Archives: clutterheart

About clutterheart

You don't know me, but you will.

We Almost Lived in a Motorhome

Posted on March 27, 2015 by clutterheart

We drove to Vermont, where we stayed a few days: frolicked in waterfalls, floated down rivers and slept under trees, before heading out to Cape Cod, a place I had always wanted to see. I ate a chilli-dog along the way. Cape … Continue reading →

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A Cure?

Posted on March 19, 2015 by clutterheart

In Savannah, Mom asked if she was dying. My heart soured with sadness. “We are all dying, Mom,” I answered. “No, did the doctor tell you that I’m dying?” “No Mom. The doctor did not say that.” This disease forces … Continue reading →

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Everyday Update and Warning Signs

Posted on March 17, 2015 by clutterheart

Bill is working hard to support our family. He bought us a house. It’s so beautiful. When I look at it, it makes me want to cry. It’s unbelievable, really, and when I walk through and feel its sturdy bones, … Continue reading →

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Inner Voice

Posted on March 13, 2015 by clutterheart

So much has happened since I last visited with you, and life has moved in fast forward. I asked my father-in-law about life moving faster and faster with time. “It’s true,” he said. “That’s scary,” I said. “It is,” he said. … Continue reading →

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Toalla Babies

Posted on May 8, 2014 by clutterheart

On the first day, it was peacocks, which were eerie to me because of the curve of their necks and beaks: like cobras ready to strike. I had to tell Billy that the “chicken” on the table was really his … Continue reading →

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What Makes a Friend a Friend?

Posted on September 6, 2013 by clutterheart

I met her by the poolside my first summer in college. She looked like a friend: long dark hair and a perfect bikini: black and white paisley with a vintage cut. She carried a bag she must have picked up … Continue reading →

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China and the Coming Storm

Posted on July 9, 2013 by clutterheart

Mom asks a lot about her ‘things’; the china cabinet and china mostly. Over and over, I see the disappointment in her face as I tell her that they are gone, and that there was just too much for me … Continue reading →

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Martha’s 99th Birthday

Posted on March 17, 2013 by clutterheart

I was out for dinner with family that had traveled in for my grandmother-in-law’s 99th birthday when I looked down at my phone and saw it glowing. Someone had messaged me. I held it just within view underneath the table, … Continue reading →

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Things That Help Write Your Thesis

Posted on March 17, 2013 by clutterheart

1.) The day off with nothing planned BUT writing your thesis: A friend or two may try to tempt you, not intentionally of course, to wander off track. Stand affirmative that you will be writing and that come May, you … Continue reading →

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Adventures In Basement Cleaning

Posted on March 10, 2013 by clutterheart

Over the span of twenty years, I’ve dedicated entire weekends to organizing my mom’s basement. I’ve packed its contents into boxes time and time again: three generations of old toys, old clothes, old everything Mom insisted we keep, only to … Continue reading →

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